THEN to NOW in 100 words or less.... (but who's counting?)
Forgot to mention, before my grandmother had her stroke, I started cutting myself. (I'd already had more than a few years of self injury under my belt by then but for some reason I never really cut until then.) The one and only time that I have been hospitalized, other that when I had Justin, was right after I started. I was given a transfusion because of bloodloss and a referral to a psychiatrist. *I HATE SHRINKS* --- I was 15.---
Nearly 16> went to live with Chris, his wife and my niece. Spent a cool year-and-a -half babysitting, trying to make it in highschool (I had been home-schooled and church-schooled before that), and doing laundry for the whole house.
17> Got pissed at my brother and left. (Now with no car and no funds!) Stayed with different friends. Struggled with work and the urge to beg my parents for money. Started drinking every night. In an orgy of compulsive eating and b/p, gained a whopping 60 lbs during a four month period.
17> Got preggers. Got a decent job. Got an appartment by myself. Gained more weight (topping off at around 212-220). Justin was born Oct, 20th at 11:11 AM
18> January, was raped in the parking lot of an Ybor club (I only remember small parts. I remember being attacked, but I dont remember leaving the club and I have no idea how I drove home after.) It never got reported.
18> First "date" w/ Eric (my current boyfriend) on valentines day. I didn't really think too much of him the first couple times that we met, but I slowly fell in (love?). It took me a year to admit he was my boyfriend.
19> November, had a miscarriage ( I'm not sure but I believe that I was nine weeks pregnant). Further proof of how poisoned and twisted my body is. January, Rented a house with Eric.
20> Nothing has happened this year. Thank Gods.
I think that I got the timeline pretty well on the mark. To tell you the truth, I can barely remember when half of this crap happened.
.... Who cares anyway......
~ C.
